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What’s your favorite recipe?

Okay, I have to respectfully write this post.  And the secondary subject, that is the woman I’m writing about, well, I totally respect her, but, sometimes I make ill-advised, off handed comments.  But that break up, and the way it left me feeling, brought me to my favorite recipe.

It was a text, one with an ominous message…”We need to talk.” Besides a meeting place, there was nothing else.

I had known it was ending, and, somewhere, deep in my subconscious, I was relieved.  I mean, this game, it was an act without purpose.  So, that walk in the park, where she listed a dozen of my shortcomings, it was merely a formality. 

Yes, the break up had to happen.  The only reason why I had fought it, I’m referring to our final walk in the park, was, basically, I felt she was full of crap…maybe she was.  I guess sometimes, when you don’t want to do something anymore, you come up with excuses.

Even if I felt they were phony reasons, and I didn’t want those attributes attached to my reputation, well, I swallowed them down and let it go. 

And then I was entirely alone.

I remember, as I prepared a meal in my kitchen, and using the spatula she bought me, yeah, sometimes, she’d come over with random purchases from a store, anyways, I was thinking that the only positive I could take from our relationship, a four month fling, was the cooking utensil in my hand. ..I knew this would be the outcome practically from the onset.

And if you were to compare and contrast two people…yeah, we simply didn’t belong together.  I knew that.  Yet, it was weird, I didn’t want the relationship, and I was fighting my subconscious, but I didn’t want it to be purposeles.

So, I ruminated, and thought of a happy moment of us together, and then it hit me, Chimichurri sauce!  It wasn’t her, necessarily, that had made me happy, but hey, if we had never met, I’d have never tasted that robust flavor. 

So, I went online and found it.  “There,”  I thought to myself, “That’s a positive!”  Suddenly, I felt better.  Now, I don’t know if it’s her I think about when I make that cilantro based condiment, but I’m proud to have other people try it.. because it’s actually really, really good.

Have an Excellent Day!